Summer

So far summer has been pretty good. Alysa is in Florida right now vacationing with my mom and I am taking two online classes. It's my first time back in school in 4 years and I kinda dove right in. It's been keeping my busy. Carter is growing and getting so big. He's now eating baby food and he's pretty much weaned from nursing. It's been emotional, but I'm ready to get my old body back. I've been doing weight watchers and so far I have lost 8 pounds. I'm loosing weight at a slow steady pace but so far I'm happy with my results. I feel better about myself and I'm looking forward to what lies ahead. I'm now on a mission to buy a house. I have horrible credit and I don't make a lot of money, but I am determined to find a way. I need to make a few phone calls and see if realistically there is even a chance, but I've got my fingers crossed.

July 4th

Last weekend I went to my Uncle's wedding. I was ignored by most of my family, so I'm not going to go on about that. And tonight I had to work. We were crazy busy, so I didn't even get to see the fireworks show. I made good money though. Went and had a fewe drinks with my co-workers afterwords and had a wonderful time. (I miss having a social life) and now I'm home in a crappy mood again because of Charles. I hate how I still care. I wish the things he did... or didn't do... didn't have so much control over my emotions. I need to figure out how to get over us... and what never will be.